Lazy Seagulls

“I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go! I will counsel you and watch over you.”

~Psalm 32:8

            The seagulls on the water remind me of my friends. Well, my true friends. Not just people who think I’m cool and stuff like that… Real friends…people who really care about me. I need people like that in my life. Living with multiple diseases is hard. I take a whole load of pills for my illnesses. My breakfast is a handful of pills. After taking them I feel so full.

        My friends come in all shapes and sizes. Some of them are shy and artistic. Some are outgoing and love to party and just love life in general. Then there are the people like me who like to spread the word.

       Most of my friends are christian or religious so I don't have pointless arguments about whether or not there is a "GOD". Because I know there is a God. I don't know how I know for sure...I just have faith. Religion is one thing, faith is a completely different thing.

      I have great friends now, but I didn't have the best friends in the past. They were either too troubled, too negative, too smothering, or just too immature. I am slowly but surely cutting those people out of my life because they have brought me nothing but pain.

       Yes...pain....

        It's a thing that I am very familiar with. Fibromyalgia pain, Lupus pain, Anxiety pain, Mood disorder pain....pain from trauma....it's all pain.

       I'm just so tired of feeling it. that's why I am glad I have the friends I have now. They have really helped me. And in return, I am a good friend to everyone I know.