Crazy, Yup That's Me!!!

Well I guess I am *crazy* =)

          The other day I was online on yahoo and one of my old friends went online, saw I was online, and went immediately offline. Then I found that she had deleted me off facebook.

          Gee, and I thought we were *friends* =/

          I had talked to her all the time on IM last year and now she avoids me like the plague. I don’t know what it is… Is it my personality? Or is it the fact that I have a mental illness and like to talk about mental illnesses?
          People make me sick. No, I’m serious…they really do. Everyone is so judgmental and everything. If you do one thing wrong you have lost their respect forever. I don’t think all people are bad, just the people who judge others so harshly.

          Grrr!!!! =(

          Yup, that’s my frowny face…

          But these things happen people… Not everyone who says they are your friend are really your friend…

          Crazy…yeah I am… The really crazy people don’t think they’re crazy…

          I try to avoid the mental illness label because of all the people who will judge me as crazy and stuff like that.

          But no one’s really crazy, are they?

          And as for that *friend*, well, she wasn’t a real friend. A real friend would sit down with you and joke about how being *crazy* is cool.

          =D

          Real friends don’t judge. Real friends don’t care about who or what you are. Real friends will carry you when you have lost all hope.

          Sadly, not everyone has real friends…

          I have a few real friends, but these friends are friends who have dealt with mental illness themselves. The only way people are going to truly understand, is if they have dealt with what you have been dealing with, or if they have dealt with something that is similar to what you have been dealing with.

          =/

          Sounds difficult, huh? Well…it explains why I talk about DID and BPD! I have Bipolar Disorder…a mild version called cyclothymic disorder. I get a little high and a little down…and that’s about it. But it’s a mental disorder…and people still judge me harshly for it.

          But, it’s not my fault I have Cyclothymic disorder. I can’t help the way my brain was formed.

          I can’t undo this disorder. I take medication for it, and that somewhat helps with the pain and the ups and downs.

          But I’m not going to be ashamed of something that I cannot help having.

          I’m Bipolar, I’m mentally ill…

          If you have a problem with this, go now…

          There’s nothing *wrong* with me… I’m a person like everybody else.