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Link to "The Wolf": Poems about Lupus

I love to write but writing those poems was hard to me because it dug up a lot of old feeling. I'm okay now but I was so sick to my stomach writing those poems.
I hate that beast!!!

Screaming Nurse

It’s very painful to write about this disease

And the more I write

The more pain I feel

Nonetheless I push on

Determined to pass the truth along

Call me strong

Call me weak

It doesn’t matter

Because we are all people

We all suffer…

And my suffering

Is *not* in vain

Meditation

Writing about this horrible disease brings me pain

Yet I write about it anyway

I’m a foolish woman

To take such a risk

But I want to

I want to live

I want people to hear me

I shudder thinking about the judgment I will face

For just simply being me

I want out

I want out

But I can’t escape this fight

It burns from the inside

Tears at my soul

Please, lord, let me finally be free

Crippled

No matter where I go

It always finds me

The purple beast

With glowing eyes

The eyes blood red

The mouth, full of blood

The snake follows me everywhere

Tells me I’m going to die

Tells me I’m lying

It’s getting so hard to fight

I want to give up but I cannot

I still have a role

I’m a warrior

I have to continue helping others

And then….

Help myself…

Because only I can put

The pieces back together

The Faust Of Love

I want to be a butterfly

Flying freely

Away from sorrow

And away from pain

Flying through the night sky

Without a care in the world

Now that’s the life for me

Flying free

Free from everything

I want my freedom

My freedom from everything

Sorrow

Will there ever be a cure?

I don’t know

Will people ever understand?

I don’t know

I want a cure

I want release

I want everything

I could never have

But one thing I do have

Is strength

I am a strong and powerful warrior

I was raised from the ruins of defeat

I was reborn as a different person

I didn’t recognized myself then

I tried to run from who I was

But I couldn’t

Now I’m running into the fight

So I can win.

Unconcious

The fight still rages on

I feel worn and weak

Yet I still go on

I keep hoping for the light

The light to show me the way

Because fighting everyday

Is hard on my soul

I want to give up sometimes

But then I stop myself in my tracks

And tell myself the truth

There is always hope

No matter how bleak things may be

One day I’ll die

But I’m not afraid

I’ll be going to a better place

And when I do

I’ll know I did

What I came here to do