Stupid Thoughts

“I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.

John 15:5

Finally I feel well enough to write a good passage. Brace yourselves everyone, this is going to be good. Let’s talk about General Anxiety Disorder. This is something I face and hate a lot, by the way. And since other people in the world have this disorder and may be helped by what I am going to write here, I am going to write about this.

I worry a lot. I worry about little things. I obsess about little things that I shouldn’t be obsessing about. That’s a part of the disorder: unnecessary worrying.

For example, I’ll worry about my homework and my class when I don’t even have it due until three days later. This is something I have noticed about myself and I thought it would help others if I wrote it down.

Nobody wants to feel like they are alone with a disorder.

When I worry it makes me sick...I start to fall over with worry. “What if?” I think...

“What if I die tomorrow?” I think that a lot. It’s an obsessive thought. The mind of the General Anxiety Sufferer is full of ridiculous questions.

What if I die tomorrow? Well, if I do I’ll hopefully be in the kingdom of God. But if I am not then I don’t know. But I am tired of living in a “What if? “ Kind of universe.

More than anything, I want to be free.