Hey, I can't breathe!

See that what you have heard from the beginning remains in you. If it does, you also will remain in the Son and in the Father.

1 John 2:24

Lupus, Lupus, on the wall, will you be the death of me…

I worry a lot. That’s a part of General Anxiety Disorder. I worry about stupid things, or things that most people would find stupid.

       I also know that what I have is treatable and that everything in the end will be okay. It’s not the end yet though, so not everything is okay yet.

       I worry about getting killed by Lupus. I have heard of it happening, I have “seen” it happen. I’m just afraid of it happening to me. But I shouldn’t worry, should I? I mean, it’s just a mild case. My Lupus hasn’t progressed past joint and lung pain.

       But still…it’s a worry in my mind. And I was blessed with my mother’s kind heart, and her problems.

       Now I wonder…what’s going to happen to me?

       Am I going to die from Lupus? The thought scares me so much that I can’t breathe. My throat closes up and everything.

       I haven’t had to go to the ER because of this but I feel like maybe I should have…I don’t know…I hate it when anxiety rules my life.

       Be warned…anxiety…I will beat you one day…