I Want To Be Believed

“My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him.”

~Psalm 62:1

This picture reminds me how God forgives and how people can be forgiving if they have the spirit of God inside them.

      I always had a hard time with friends who wouldn’t forgive me. They were immature and expected me to do everything for them. I had gotten to the end of my rope with one of these friends. I won’t give away the name because I don’t want to single anyone out. But it was hell juggling my disease and dealing with those people.

      And I hated the people who thought it was their job to fix everything about me. I mean, it was my life and my job to help myself. I didn’t want or need their help.

God, people could be so dumb.

      Gosh, now I’m starting to b****…and I shouldn’t really do that. I should be happy that I have great friends who love and care about me. I mean, why not???? I’m a great person, and great people tend to attract good people in return. Sometimes we attract people who are not very good, but that’s just life.

      Life is a challenge for me right now. I’m healthier but not down to remission just yet. I’m not officially diagnosed with Lupus. Everyone tells me they don’t want me to have it…but…I’m pretty sure I do, and I can’t just ignore that. I have to take care of myself and my health. Why can’t people understand that. I don’t want people to say “I hope you don’t have it”….I just want people to say “I support you and believe you”.

That’s all I want.