The Fight of the Beast

May those who hope in you

   not be disgraced because of me,

   O Lord, the LORD Almighty;

may those who seek you

   not be put to shame because of me,

   O God of Israel.

~Psalm 69:6



Off to fight

Off to win

Off to beat

The beast within

No one will stop me I'm going to win

I'm off to fight the beast within

My Fight

Kings will be your foster fathers,

   and their queens your nursing mothers.

They will bow down before you with their faces to the ground;

   they will lick the dust at your feet.

Then you will know that I am the LORD;

   those who hope in me will not be disappointed.”

~Isaiah 49:23

Running through life

Trying to avoid the beast

The fear clutches at my heart

It was never meant to be

Running ever faster

Avoiding at all costs

This is my fight with General anxiety



The Forebodiing

And now, dear children, continue in him, so that when he appears we may be confident and unashamed before him at his coming.

1 John 2:28

Outside the sun is bright

But inside I feel some fear

Like something horrible is going to happen

I reach out my hand

And see the truth

Something bad is happening

And there's nothing I can do to stop it

I feel a cold, icy hand on my back

And know that the battle has just begun

Adventure

Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls.

1 Peter 1:8-9

This monster tore me up

How can I function like this?

I feel a great adventure coming on

And suddenly the light is coming

I jump up and grab the ledge

And pull myself up

The adventure has just begun.

Twisted Teeth

And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.

1 Peter 5:10

My muscles are all twisted inside me

I cannot feel and move

I feel like I am going to die

From this horrible pain inside me

Drip drip

Reminds me of the bathroom

Laugh, laugh

Reminds me of the good times I used to have

Think, think

I want those good times back

Fear

He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful.

John 15:2

Am I there yet?

I do not know

Where am I?

I cannot say

A great monster is hounding me

It refuses to leave me alone

Injecting my mind with fear

It immobilizes me

Oh, how I wish I knew a way to escape

Please leave me alone monster

I do not want your hate

I do not want your fear

And I do not want you

The Monster of Sadness

Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. 20 Thus, by their fruit you will recognize them.

Matthew 7:19-20

The monster brings me in

And makes me cough in pain

For I don’t like this at all

The rock of depression weighs

I fall to the ground agony

My muscles wrenched in two

Lift this nightmare from my eyes

And open my eyes to the light

Because I don’t want to live in this anymore

I just want to be free

The eternal sadness never lifting

The darkness surrounding me

Now I don’t know what to do

Please God help me